Good Morning Everyone!!
I deal with really bad anxiety. It’s so bad that I’ve started to not like being around new people because I think that they are judging me. Then there’s always guys joking around about “thick” or “fat” girls and I just think if they’re saying stuff about someone they don’t know, then what might they be saying about me? I’m not exactly a twig. I’ve noticed that being overweight has really bumped my anxiety levels higher and I want to change that. The old Katie would apply for jobs and not be nervous or get panic attacks. The current Katie starts an application and then doesn’t finish it because she starts to freak out and anxiety takes over. That’s all going to change this year.
Now I know what you’re thinking. “How is she going to make a big change if she’s fallen off the band wagon numerous times in the past?”. Well, this time I have someone holding me accountable. I want to thank Lindsay for being my support group. Together we will discuss workouts and food intake and keep each other on track. Now, I will be starting this off slowly as I don’t want to just jump into eating salmon everyday and starving myself. I’ve already started making big changes. I drink so much water now and have almost completely kicked sodas from my diet. If I have one, it’s usually once a week. I’ve also started eating better. We used to go out for fast food so often at my parents house. Mostly, because we didn’t have a lot of space for our own food in the fridge and I’d get yelled at for using the kitchen at the same time as my mother. So we just opted to eating out more. Now that we have our own place again, we hardly ever go out to eat. It’s not that we’re so broke we can’t afford it, that’s not the case. We just have gotten in a routine of eating at home. I’ve definitely gotten into a routine of making meals every night for when Steven gets home from a long day at work. I really like making baked chicken and roasting veggies – carrots, sweet potatoes, zucchini. Yum!
Lately, I’ve been starting my mornings off with eggs. Usually 2 eggs with a little bit of milk mixed in. Then I accompany it with either roasted sweet potatoes or today, I had banana. This kept me under 300 calories.
Thanks to Lindsay, I have started a new workout which means I don’t have to feel awkward trying to do something outside or at our apartment gym. Here’s the video. You’d think that it doesn’t do a lot but I was sweating up a storm after doing it last night.
I hope to be able to report every so many days on my progress. I still need to pick up a scale so I can see what my current weight is and see what I lose throughout the weeks.
May you all follow me and support me through this journey. Thank you!